A new day comes: choosing hope at the crossroads

Hi, all.

Itโ€™s been almost half a year since I posted last, and the reason this time is that Iโ€™ve been pretty deep in the weeds, personally. There have been some developments in my work, some chronic health issues popping up, and some practical things that had to be addressed. But mostly itโ€™s been the same worry and stress that everyone has been feeling lately – politics.

Tomorrow is Election Day in the US, the last day for casting ballots and the first day of counting. Itโ€™s tomorrow as of the time of writing this blog post. By the time you read it, weโ€™ll be well into the process. I donโ€™t expect it to be quick, clean, or easy. It will likely be some time before we know for sure what path my country is going to take.

I wonโ€™t lie, Iโ€™m sick to my stomach about it, but in keeping with my personality, Iโ€™m more angry than scared. There are people I will never forgive for what theyโ€™ve taken from me and my world these recent years. Iโ€™ve lost friends and family connections to an ideological cult. My cynicism is a hot, inflamed mess. My capacity for trust is totaled, uncertain if it can ever be fixed. Iโ€™ve felt stuck, paralyzed, unable to commit to plans because I have no idea what conditions to plan for. The most fantastical and outlandish worst-case scenarios seem all too plausible now.ย 

Everything Iโ€™ve been doing, all the ways Iโ€™ve been presenting myself, the public image I project, itโ€™s all being second-guessed. Can I, like this, really operate in a new reality? Is this version of me even functional, let alone relevant, to any of the roads opening before me? And if not, how should I adapt? Which Jen should take over and where should she appear?

By 1:00AM, Tuesday, November 5, 2024 (though I guess itโ€™ll really be Wednesday morning), the last polls in the USA, in Alaska, will be closed and concepts will start transforming into things. Only then will we start to get a clear idea of what weโ€™re dealing with.

It matters tremendously, of course, but however it works out, Election Day is only the beginning. Itโ€™s just the day of making a choice. Doing things to realize that choice comes after.

Whether we end up regrouping to relaunch our opposition to ascendant fascism, or we celebrate democracyโ€™s win with sweeping actions to clean our house at last, we will need to dedicate the rest of our lives to curing the critical rot in our society. Iโ€™m coming around to the belief that this struggle will never end. It will return again and again, as outlined in an inspiring historical analysis by Heather Cox Richardson. And I kind of don’t mind that. I think this is what it means to โ€œfight the good fightโ€ and to โ€œkeep the faithโ€ โ€” to be willing to embrace that never-ending work as oneโ€™s self expression and the definition of oneโ€™s community. Thatโ€™s how โ€œAmericanโ€ should be defined, as a people who fight for freedom and stand against the forces of autocracy.

Iโ€™ve decided to get a bit of a jump on all the work, so to speak, with a series of blog articles on the topic of principles. Iโ€™ll get down to the granular texture on specific topics in later articles, but in this inaugural statement I want to make one thing clear.

I am a left-leaning, liberal progressive, and proud of it. I support progressive policies in the US, I give my vote to Kamala Harris for US President, and I want to state in as strong terms as possible that I provide no safe space – zero safe space – to haters and manipulators.ย 

If you are a racist, a sexist, misogynist, transphobe, homophobe. any kind of genderist, a corporatist of any kind, a fascist, an elitist, a denier of science, history, or simple facts, a warmonger or profiteer, or an extremist of any kind, you are not and will never be welcome here, because Iโ€™m done with all that crap. Thatโ€™s Point 1 in the post-election 2024 reality, whatever else it might be. It has always been what Iโ€™m about as a person, and it always will be. Simple as, end of.

I have only a tiny community right now, but it might grow – it could happen – and this statement will always be on this website, applicable to all people and situations. So if someday, someone has a problem coping with getting their bullshit called out, they were warned.

Iโ€™m going to wrap this up with words from the most famous American President ever to win a civil war, because I feel he captured that moment, this moment, and every similar moment more perfectly than I ever could.

And Iโ€™ll close my own words with one of my recent watercolors. Itโ€™s a very small painting of something very large. It is the sunrise.

It’s our turn now, all of us. Choose hope, people.

– Jen


The Gettysburg Address

Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in Liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal.

Now we are engaged in a great civil war, testing whether that nation, or any nation so conceived and so dedicated, can long endure. We are met on a great battle-field of that war. We have come to dedicate a portion of that field, as a final resting place for those who here gave their lives that that nation might live. It is altogether fitting and proper that we should do this.

But, in a larger sense, we cannot dedicate โ€” we cannot consecrate โ€” we cannot hallow โ€” this ground. The brave men, living and dead, who struggled here, have consecrated it, far above our poor power to add or detract. The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here. It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced. It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us โ€” that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion โ€” that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain โ€” that this nation, under God, shall have a new birth of freedom โ€” and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth.

Abraham Lincoln
November 19, 1863

Books, Bees, & Sunflowers

This month, I finally finished one of my projects, the re-binding of my Pictorial Key to the Tarot. You saw it in progress in my last posting. Below are some photos of the finished book.

The new cover uses the boards of the original cover wrapped in a one-of-a-kind decorative paste paper I made recently. I salvaged the torn, beat-up, original spine label, fading it a bit more with a lick of paint. The lines of fine black ribbon on either side of the spine are the exposed stitching attaching the cover to the book. I went with my preferred adhesive-free, sewn binding. The inside covers, front and back, have double pockets for notes, and I included five permanent ribbon bookmarks. As you can see, the book lies open very easily. Closed, it looks quite fetching on my bookshelf as well.

What else is going on? Flowers! Bees! The garden is a satisfying riot of gorgeousness and buzzing. Weโ€™ve suffered through some heavy heat and rain, but all is well on the flora and fauna front.

I learned today that the sunflower is associated with the womenโ€™s suffrage movement. It was used on a button of the National American Woman Suffrage Association for their 1867 Kansas campaign, and was Elizabeth Cady Stantonโ€™s pen-name in the womenโ€™s newspaper, The Lily. (Elizabeth Cady Stanton Hometown Association) As 2020 marks the 100th anniversary of the ratification of the 19th Amendment, guaranteeing women the vote in the US, Iโ€™m feeling a little extra pride in my lovely, tall, nodding, giant flowers.

Also, exciting announcement, a shop-like arrangement is in the works. Watch this space for updates on when works will become available to buy. Iโ€™m a little terrified by the prospect, but itโ€™s really happening. The paperwork is mostly in hand.

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The Pictorial Key to the Tarot, re-bound


In the Garden